6 years of not being dead

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Is celebrating 6 years of not being dead! Yay 😂!

Its 6 years since my brain haemorrhage today - I don't know whether I am
 getting better or just better at being disabled. I find i care less about about
 things I see as unimportant.

 I sound as I sound, I walk as i walk - yes I am doing my best to improve it but
 until then it is what it is.... (it turns out not caring what anyone thinks is actually
an awfully lot easier said than done - you will hopefully never know how hard that
 is to write that I don't care and actually mean).

I know on Facebook you are supposed to put good things and i don't want to be all
negative - so I am really happy im alive today with my lovely husband and family
but I am not going to lie or sugar coat it - as you can probably imagine it is/has been
 truly terrible.

It has been, and continues to be, the hardest thing I have ever done by far - those that
know me well will know how hard i work...

But yay for being alive! I guess everything else is a bonus - at least I get to see my children
 hopefully grow up (there is an awful lot of people who had the same as me that aren't that
lucky).

 It's remembering I am one of the lucky ones whenever I feel upset or frustrated. I don't
 really remember what it was like to be 'normal' now - so much has changed and it has been
 this way for soooo long...I just know it was MUCH easier..

So for the next year - we'll see what happens.

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